better

thank goodness. i'm starting to feel much better. not perfect, but at least i can sort of breathe. i'm thinking i may try to make it to work tomorrow to get myself out of bed... however, i need to promise myself not to push it as it will just make me sicker and push me back into bed.

things for my mom seem to get harrier. she's up then... she's way down. she was making extremely slow progress due to a slipped disc (thanks baystate medical center) and has now developed another blood clot in her... non leg? stump? pick a phrase. to make matters a little worse, she also fell. so any progress she had made at becoming more mobile has now been obliterated. because of the bloodclots in her leg, she's pretty adimant about not wanting to go back to baystate. which i can't say i blame her. she's pushing to come back to tufts. which really.. would make my day when it comes to her health. not to be selfish, but if she's got to be in the hospital i'd rather her be here so i can see her more regularly. the only downer of that is a real big one... i may have to let audrey into my house. mostly because her friend who lives in dorchester (also obnoxious beyond belief), well her roomate is a gay gal who likes to host get-togethers at her house. get-togethers that audrey and her friend are not invited too, mostly because of their straitness, plus, i bet the two of them drive that woman up the wall. if i don't offer to let her stay here, then my mom gets stressed out. so i kind of just need to grin and bear it. i can say... the thought of having her in my house makes me sick.. and even worse to have to deal with jenny-lee or whatever the fuck her name is... gag me please.

back to bed to rest of for tomorrow..